Dream Warriors

I can’t sleep.

Thursday is a big event at work and I’m worried to death that I’ve missed something important.

It’s a a quarter to one and I’ve just thrown up a bit in my mouth. I’m having trouble concentrating. I feel like I have attention deficit disorder. My mind is bouncing from one thing to another.

I have so much to do and I don’t know where to begin. The mountain seems so high.

I know I’m just overly stressed, but I’ve been feeling like this for quite sometime. I try and break free and find a moment to relax, but its not coming. I tried relaxation techniques I learned when I was in high school and they aren’t working. I try and relax by watching some Tivo’d programs and afterwards I feel I wasted away time I could be doing something more productive.

This feeling is not something I like in myself. I think it’s about as close to a panic attack as I’ve ever been under. The last time this happened I called the two and a half hours away girl so she could talk me down from the ledge. I’m not calling her at 1 am even though I know she’d take my call.

If I had some sleeping pills I might actually take one.