In my Dreams

In my dreams we are always holding hands…

Am I in love with her or just in love with the idea of her?
Do you always want what you can’t have?
I guess I just miss what I thought we would be.

I make coffee in the coffee maker you gave me for Christmas. I see you there.
I remember our kiss in my car every time I turn the ignition. I see you there.
I close my eyes. I see you there.

My dream came true and I let it slip away
Like water through my fingers, like sand in an hourglass
All I have are pictures of you and afterimages in my mind’s eye
You are a ghost haunting my present for the choices I made in my past

“I love you, but I’m not in love with you” is the worse thing anyone can ever say.